Mandy-Jo

Must be doing something right We say we moved on Your happy and free But for me I bleed I have eaten less I can't sleep at night I cry every day And weep every night One day you where mine You declared our love to the world Now it's like you ashamed of it Ashamed to say I was you girl We where not ever dating But doesn't mean I was not utterly in love But little did I know your love was fading Or was it even love, you spoke of You where my world once It's stupid of me to say, Your still everything to me Even though I'm nothing but in your way If only you knew how much you hurt me I can never be open with another soul Because

A total stranger, I met in the dark. Who would have ever guessed he would be the love of my heart. Sleepless nights I would talk to him, He always made me smile, and laugh once again. Are friendship went on, as more nights had pasted. A stranger no more but a friendship that would last. I knew him more day by day, he told me secrets and of his past ways. I knew he was perfect by the way he was, I started to fall in love but wasn't sure if he was. Then one day he told the, biggest secret of all. He like me but wasn't sure if I fall, Fallen in love with him. I told him the truth, told him, I like no one but you. So the stranger I knew,

      I will never stop loving you, I will never be set free.      All I need is you to love me, And want me for me.      You didn't break my heart before, But now it's shattered all on the floor.       When I was the most venerable, Is when you walked out the door.      You say you still love me, it just couldn't work right now.      But I'm still wondering, Wondering if my heart will ever be picked up off the ground.      They say if you love someone, Then set them out and to be free.     But I still love you. And want you to be with me.      So as I see you smile, And talk about her around me.      I'll never be the same, Fo

Lately I have been sitting in, my bed. Thinking of all the rumors and things people have said. I am not crazy nor am I lazy, just always emotionally upset. I ask my self and wonder, is my life just a simple test? A test to see how sad, one may get. Or how hate may be something, that I protest. I don't hate them, I don't hate you. Just hate the things I have, done because of you. I have cried and screamed, but even worse I have shed. Shed the blood so deep in my heart, for your love has never been apart. Apart of my life growing up to be, the little girl you always wish was me. It is to late now for you will never ever be love inside of m

The three letter word that means the most to me. Is the one that I wish could just be me, Then maybe I will be set free. Not a soul wants me in heaven, nor in the fires pits of hell. Either way is my destiny my life shall soon tell. The first letter of this word best describes me D. A damsel in destrees, is why depression and grieve are the words that I protest. The next letter of this word is a I, which I can only tell. I my self just long for hell, maybe then I will be the story of the realm. Greatly the letter E is the last puzzle of this peace. Excitingly you will see, how much love was between you and me. But yet I still had to lea

The scares so deep on my heart, and everywhere else. They will always be there to, remind me of hell. Raised up by my mom that is, a living hell. If only this was the story, I could tell. The scares are the treat my, heart can never contest. Instead I am stuck here, wondering if they will ever be impressed. Impressed by the show that's, been on so long. Why can I not just be me and, sing this oh sad song? The scares are as always fond, of weakness that shows. The chains shall never break, but always be known. Known to hold weak ones down, they pick you up and throw you on the ground. Outer most those scares are, always part of my show.

She stands before the mirror, and looks into the glass, the make up that she wears hides a secret,from the past. the way she's been abused is why she can't decide should she end it now? or keep it all inside? she see's the picture in her mind, the worst is saved for last, she looks down at her fisted hand and thrusts it through the glass.

Am I worth anything to this world, Or yet am I just another lonely girl. No one can see whats under this face, Confused alone and left to defend for her own. Everyday I'm broken down piece by piece, i can't wait for the day when I'm dead and gone and everyone will be at peace I know they think I'm ugly, I'm worth nothing to save, So why don't you take my God all the way down to the darken place. When I'm out I get those looks that say it all, Why wont that ugly piece of shit just stay at home. So now my door is locked, the windows down, I think of him then begin to bleed. The sharp steal point drives deeper into me, Trough my h

      Can you tuck me into bed mama? Don't forget to kiss me goodnight.       Can you tell me a story mama, Before you turn out the lights?       Can you kiss my forehead mama, Like you used to do before?       Can you at least tell me you love me mama, Before you close the bedroom door?       Why don't you wanna talk to me mama? I miss the sound of your voice.       Mama, can you please say somethin'? I guess if you don't, it's your choice. But mama, I have to tell you somethin'...     

      It starts with a yell then begins it all, He throws the knife as I stand against the wall.       With tears down my face I don't know what to do, He tells me he hates me even more God hates me to.       He reaches out his hand and throws me to the ground, he beats me more and leaves me to drown.       I'm drowning know in my tears filled with fears  Wondering if I'll ever see the happy years.       He pulls me up and chains me to the wall,  He beats me more and tells me it's my fault.       It's mor